Thursday, May 21, 2009

What a day.
I got back my scripts,
with that same. lousy. heavyhearted. self.
Going through an exam period is terribly draining.
So is looking at your results and telling yourself things might get better.
It has to with me being me.
For th Curious:

EL B3
MT FAIL
SSG B3
LIT B3
EM A1
AM A2
BIO C5 (Damn.)
CHM B4

Yeah. Pls don't give me you did well.
I can be pleased with myself.
But myself doesn't control how much time my ears have to bear with nagging.
Yes, nagging.
The incessant bane of most people.
I'm tired.
I'm exhausted.
And not willing to entertain to be honest.
Empathy is a way of thinking,
superficially understood by some people it seems.
"Generation gap my ass, excuses for th ignorant".
Th rigidity.
Th dictatorship.
Th pressure.

Th volume of music on my player is increasing as well.
I might need a pair of headphones again.
I miss th isolation I used to get.
Th shut-me-from-the-world feeling.
But no. He banned me from using that.
Crap. I know my science.
That thing won't damage my hearing.
Your excuses for just wanting me to be able to hear what you want to tell me.

My music taste is all over as well.
But due to my increasingly impatient nature.
Veeery sloow songs like...
100 years are put aside.
My iPod has deleted data as well.
So it's me and my phone. =]

Well, for those that are concerned.
I'm fine really,
just ranting away.
You should try.
You'll find that it...
provides an avenue to drain all that negativity.
And you're left with exhaustion.
just hope your dreams would be alright x)

Take care all,
Smail =)

I survived one storm.
Now the opening next door is...
th next stop.
I'm going slightly off th path,
just a break by that little space.
Where I shall scream and scream.
And blast music.
And close my eyes to imagine,
a happy moment.
Then i'll be back with a smile etched on my face.
Hee, self praise is international disgrace,
but I dare say im still more optimistic than th lot of you =PP

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Dream

what a dream.
But still, it was only a dream.
Th may 6 dream still lingers.
It just sits by th side,
Haunting me from time to time.
Playing on fears.

Shoo.
th judge has just sentenced you to banishment.
Don't come back.
More importantly...
Don't come true

Friday, May 15, 2009

New skin.
Maybe a new direction in life?
Maybe...

Or maybe I'm still ranting like I always do.
It's th Singaporean way to complain.
So it must be my way then to distract myself with everything...
so i'd have no reason to complain. =P