Current Mood: All over th place.

That's a common mood is it.

All over the place.

As are my thoughts,

my goals,

my sensibility.

I'm feeling exhausted somehow.

Guess it's all starting to come to me.

Then I feel helpless, pathetic like how I usually am.

Somehow my patience takes a hit.

Why can't it stop?

Stab. Stab. Stab.

Ouch, it's hurting me from th insides.

Oh crap, I'm not being me at all am I.

I guess it's yet another phase i'll have to endure for the time being.

Who do you want me to be.

I'm feeling parts of me contradict me

I guess in all my wallowing.

I know exactly what I want.

Yet it's things that you want most-

that never will come.

Guess time heals all wounds,

but if it takes too long,

is there much of th recovery to enjoy?

Before it all falls apart again.

Ismail.