I AM SAD.

Yes I am.
Wth. I. HAD. MY. PHONE. STOLEN.
Okay, the use of vulgarities I'm severely restricting.
For all this talk about not wanting to be like my father,
once I let loose I'm no different from him.
Looking back, maybe I'm just his walking mini-clone.
Alright, Maybe I'm about as tall, so clone.
Save the appearance. I follow my mom.

So, my new phone's stolen. It was a nice Sony Eric w890i.
Had it for less than a month. But now I'll never see it again.
Unless I cough up 500 dollars.
And the Thief will never be caught.
Actually if you ask me I don't mind.
There's other things more important on my mind.
Maybe this is retribution for being a liar.
or for stealing some stuff a couple of years back.

Yes, I sometimes think I'm a compulsive liar.
The lie i probably said the most.
I'm single, really.

Heh, what the hell am I thinking.
For a person who can even lie to HIMSELF.
How in the world can I expect to be trusted time and again. =/
I'm sorry I lied, its all... fear i guess.

Anyways, watched a movie at Bugis yesterday.
Okay, not a jaw dropping movie, but it was entertaining.
Made-Of-Honour.
Sometimes I feel like that fella lahh.
Talk about relating to the movie xD
Hehehe, no I'm not evil.
It was a movie about a man who loved this girl.
Background of the Man: Playboy, Casanova, Fornicator, Charming Fella
So he eventually "matured" and really liked this girl.
But see, this girl went on a trip to Scotland.
He was to propose when she returns after six weeks.
BUT.
She got herself a fiance from Scotland.
Hehehe.
Heartbroken man he waswho eventually ends up being the Maid-Of-Honour.
So he set out on this course to make the "Perfect" Wedding, to win her back.
Possibly some sexual jokes all over the place.
Yeah, then eventually he confessed and stole her just at the wedding itself.
God knows how angry the scot probably was. x)
Then they married, and made love.

That was a quick summary on the movie.
Okay, I know this blog post probably has not much spirit,
but lose something. A thing, its worse if its someone,
and you'll see the heartache. Its quite Ass.
Yeahh, and vulgarities from my own dad.
For all the insults thrown at me from other people,
I can just laugh it away.
For all the insults thrown at me from other people,
I can even take it in my stride.
For all the insults thrown at me from other people,
I can say I don't really care.
For all the insults thrown at me from my own father,
It hurts the most.
Far beyond physical injury,
Far beyond the loss of dignity.
I never understood why you could never understand

Heh, don't ask me to talk it out with my dad.
Self-centered egoist. I tried, tried, and time again,
all in vain.
I've given up.

I mean come on, he even puts pictures of him recieving some awards from Tharman.
Do I look like I give a shit when I feel that all this results are more for you than for me.

Back to topic, after that I went to Bugis,
I got a bag, and a pair of jeans. Need to return that, its kinda small.
On that day, I spent close to a hundred dollars.
Way beyond standard budget.
On that day, I lost over 500 dollars.
Heart-breaking.

Well, give me time for recomposure yeah.
I think I'll just jump back soon enough.
Like you said, this ain't the first time I lost a phone.
I still remember you smashed one.

Oh yeah, he thinks its over a girl I lost my phone.
Once again I never could understand why you couldnt.

Anyways, think this part will cheer me up. A QUIZ.
From Liyana. And I shall reply, or answer for that matter. I found it pretty cool.
It's been long since I've had a quiz x)
Put me and you in a separate quiz.
Father and Son. F9.

#1 if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Well, I guess I'd ask her Why.
Then I'll why her, till she's screwed.
Then it depends on her, if she's apologetic,
I'll forgive like I always do,
If she still remains nonchalant,
i think it just wouldn't have worked out between us darling ;)

#2 if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I'd like to be Varrigal possibly, hehe, only a few of you would understand.
On a more realistic note. I'd like to have a superb family, strong income and a house with my own idea of interior design x)
Oh, and I'd like to do a lot of charity work once in a while for children.

#3 what will your dream wedding be like?
Hehe, mine might differ from Liyana.
I'd like mine with a lot of people.
I just love to talk alot x)
Oh! Plus aircon. I think I'd like to be comfortable.
I heard wedding costumes are quite stuffy.

#4 what would you do with a billion dollars?
I'd migrate Nicholas back here. Private plane and everything.
I'll give quite a lot to my parents.
I'd maybe buy over a business and then donate alot of money to charities.
NKF not included till I know that they have sincere people.
SJAB will recieve quite alot. Then as a major contributor to their funds I would like them to revise the way they hold their camps.
Give my parents loads of money.
Just save the rest. I think there's ample.
Oh, I'd buy a nice freehold house and stay there.

#5 what's your ideal lover like?
This is weird eh. I don't really know.
I think it's ideal when I somehow feel its ideal.
Maybe ideal would be someone like me.
As in, we share a personality which each other knows straight to the core,
"what we mean". Heh x)

#6 which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being Loved.

#7 how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Woah, what a... negative question.
I would have preferred what I would "do" for someone I love.
That would be easy,
anything that doesn't cross family or religion. =]
back to question seven, Well, the right one will come when it's time for her to come.
Otherwise waiting forever sounds possible xD

#8 if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
HAHHAHAHA.
TWO OPTIONS.
1) Be just like the Made-Of-Honour. (Not likely, I'm not too evil)
2) I'd feel happy for her, being a friend's still fine xD

#9 is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
1. My Phone.
2. My Dad.
3. My Father.
4. My Papa.
5. My Daddy.
6. The Man right above me in the family tree.

#10 what do you want most in life?
Happiness. And everyone else's happiness too. =]
And there must be love in the world.
Not that it makes it go round,
cos its directly tied to Happiness.
No killing, no fighting, no poverty. =/

#11 what cheers you up the fastest?
Someone who tells me a joke,
No matter how good the joke is,
the intention was nice.
Ironically, the Man who cheers me up with a joke the fastest,
is the man who can make me down for a pretty long time.

#12 how do you see yourself in ten years time?
25 years old. I'd like a stable job. Possibly Married.
Possibly Dating. Possibly Single.
Happy.

#13 who is currently the most important people to you?
Family. Friends. And everyone else who comes to me for help.

#14 what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Happy. Friendly. Smiling away. Willing to bully Ismail xD

#15 would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Single & Rich. With all my talk of happiness I don't think a poor marriage is a healthy one. Laughter and Smiles don't put food on the table.
Lets be financially stable, then we can enjoy ourselves more x)
Anyyways, if the question continued wit Single & Rich FOREVER.
Well, being rich still has its perks, and you can still maek yourself happy by making someone else's day. =]

#16 what's the first thing you do every morning?
I wake up, remember what happened yesterday. Say uhh.

#17 would you give your all in a relationship?
Why not? o.o

#19 what type of friends do you like?
I got so many types its like so hard to narrow down.
But, I like loyal friends. =)

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End of quiz. Not too bad eh. Took one hour to write it out.
Remember why I never liked this posting. Takes me ages x)

Well, smail alwaes yeah =D
Despite everything, I still love you.
Its somehow hard to say,
but i pray there will never come a time,
when its too late.